Harley Hoodie – AFTER THE SHOW (Lyrics & Video)

AFTER THE SHOW – Harley Hoodie Lyrics

I'm having a real hard time getting over you

School wasn't lying when they said addiction will ruin you

Always giving promises that never reside

And then leaving me in my shame and guilt when I'm coming down

This isn't who I am

This isn't me

This isn't the kind of person I wanna be

Trust me, Trust me, Trust me

So what will I do if I cannot quit you

God open up my heart

Please bring me back to how I was at the start

I should've listened back at the start

Pride always comes before the fall

Cause after the show is done

Aftеr the show is done

I'ma run to the lust, I'ma run to thе drugs

Like it's life, but it's just a crutch

Then after that show is done

I'll feel like a miserable drunk

Swear I'll quit till the next one comes

Cause after the, after the show is done

After the after the

After the after the

Better you never heard of wrong person, right time

Staring at these hips got me hypnotized

Body feeling paralyzed

It's all lies in disguise

Cause after the show is done

Cause after the show is done

I'ma run to the lust, I'ma run to the drugs

Like it's life, but it's just a crutch

Lord knows I lost control

Can't take this pain no more

Just lift my head to the sky

Lord tell me please

Just why

And my mind has been stuck in all this

I was supposed to keep my promise

But I keep going back

But I keep going back

But I keep going back

But I keep going back

I can't do this on my own

I know that I am just too weak

I'm asking God above

Can you help me?

I need your strengthening

All the shame and all the guilt

With all the pain how can I live

And you say you live in me

But can you live with all this filth

God open up my heart

Please bring me back to how I was at the start

God open up our hearts

Please bring us back to how we were at the start

I'm suffering, it's true

It's hard to open up to you

Been nearly two years and I'm still cooped up in this boring room

I feel so somber every time I get undressed

This lifestyle it don't impress

I need to get out of this mess

I need to get this out my head

The media promotes all this lust

I should be looking for the Lux

I'm really looking for the

It ain't low time

I still got Lux inside

Got demons trying to pull me back inside

But I better flee not fight cause every time I try to fight

I only get sunk in deeper, telling myself that it's the last time

Deep down I know this ain't the last time

These false lies, these bodies, they don't care whether I live or die

I got good in my life

I don't need to grab the knife and gash it in just to show myself how good I had it right before I grabbed the knife

I'm tired of letting you win

Tired of asking if my pain exists

Tired of pouring into everybody else

While my own cup sits like this

Don't mistake my distance for not caring

Truth is lately I've been barely breathing

Hard to keep a fire lit for everyone

When nobody notices you're freezing

And that's the true victory

Setting yourself free from pretending you're alright all the time when I'm not