Siren (The Name of My Best Enemy) – Xyerein Lyrics
(1, 2, 3)
Y-yeah…
Okay
This is- this is gonna be like-…
Shit, okay (1)
This'll be your uhm… your late birthday present
Yeah, since we didn’t wanna rush-… y'know
The thingy (2)
Probably just name this something you like
But-… i-i-it's… here
Ahem
1, 2, 3, 4
My dawn is near
It dawns right here
It’s like I finally understand it now
Though I've never been able to recognize- wait
I don't hate myself, though I put myself through hell
It's like I make it all 'bout me, I still care 'bout mental health
My focus ain't on greed, but I'm possessive easily
I want your focus all on me, glad you finally fucking see it now
I feel bad, my eyes, they rain like clouds
You say it’s fine, I just don’t really get how
You find me and you wanted me to stay found
My bruised up broken body, went from dead to safe and sound
My eyes, they're ruined, from crying in my room
The sun, the moon, they pass me, I pass soon
The blood, the bruise, the self inflicted wounds
I’m done, I'm used, it hurt but it felt good
To what I prove, nobody cares at all
Except for you, my momma, dad, and dogs
It's hard to lose the concept of the fall
I love you too, but how are you not gone?
The siren's screaming, I push my fingers in my ears
But now I am bleeding, they tell me go and face my fears
It’s not that easy, no you don't get it, don't you, dear?
I can't explain it, but I will try to make it clear
It happened 'bout last year around the time my grandpa died
I was thinking 'bout it all, about self harm and suicide
I told myself I would get better, that was spose'da be a lie
And then we got together and I finally shut my eyes
They burn so… bad
Why the fuck are you not mad?
Just… just like everybody else
I'm so used to being held down
Tied up, spat on
Mean names, that's just where I'm from
Why God? Where are you, why me?
Who am I, who the fuck was I supposed to be?
Be?
Be?
Be?
