elara (Elara Varin) – ˂3 Lyrics

˂3 – elara (Elara Varin) Lyrics

No, I don't understand, this song is harder for me

Yeah, I'm running out of plans and it gets harder to breathe

And I wonder if it's silly to finally be free

From the shackles I wounded down and life been driving me crazy

All my friends around me, happy with somebody that they love

But I'm here with my heart hurting, every day I'm giving up

Yeah, I'm throwing every relationship that I ever want

Asking God every day, "Why'd you make me like this?" It's fucked up

Wanna relapse, relapse, relapse again, I'm losing it

Can't relax, relax, relax, hate every second of my life

You think I gotta go from the other side

But every day gets worse, I'm finding thoughts that I wanna die

I just wanna be loved

But I'm stuck on an expedite three years ago, it sucks

She was the first that's treated me right, she's gone, and now I'm fucked

I just wanna be civil, but my time is always up, yeah, I'm falling apart

I'm tired, seeing everyone is happy but me

I wanna end it all, but that ain't who I'm supposed to be

Yeah, I'm so alone, it hurts, I miss when I was sixteen

When I didn't have the music and someone who loved me

Even my family was so far away

I'm in my head more everyday, I've gone insane

No, I never wanted temporary fame

I wish that everyone would just forget my name

I miss the kid I used to be back then

When I had fun and dreams, it's come to an end

But for my brain, it's really not, I would stay the same

Sometimes I break down crying, what I could have been

But now I look into the mirror and I hate everything that I see

Every single night I dreamed 'bout who I'll never be

I know I did get rid of my honesty

But I can't help but be transparent

Got no one to vent to, not my fans, not my parents

I wish I was dead, I hate this life, I can't bear it

I was in mind, someone help me, please, help me

Yeah, I understand it

Every time I look down on my hands, I feel embarrassed

I'm so damn alone every day and it's so apparent

I wish I was in another body, I can't stand it all

And I hate that community I'm in

But I don't fit in anywhere else

It feels like no one ever wants me around

I hate everyone, don't wanna hear a sound

But it's life always bringing, calm people down

I try to struggle, am I trying my hardest

To be better than these other artists?

So, why's it harder for me when I have better morals?

I hate these people and they hard be normal

All your favorite artists, even though they might bring people down

Doing hard drugs every day and don't keep track of amounts

Yet, they're at the top, high off their ego, it won't come down

I don't understand how you don't see they're horrible now

Got friends with better music, but they still can't hit a mil'

But yall support the problem, manic people, what's the deal?

I've seen all the drama and pros, how come, still

People won't support the mic, how cold, they can't be real

I tried to be better, I just can't get it out my head

I try my best to be good, but they still like them instead

It makes me feel so worthless, but I still try again

To be a better person, the suffer never ends

I talk to all my fans even though I barely have any

There's not much in my life to be happy 'bout, but they give plenty

Reasons to keep living every day, it's hard, but they're with me

In a way, they're only thing that keep me alive