derrickwithaexclamationmark – GOST LOLD (Lyrics & Video)

GOST LOLD – derrickwithaexclamationmark Lyrics

INTRO

Way too far

Searching too long

Tu.du.duuu

VERSE ONE

I been searching too long

CHASING AT THE RIVER, trying to figure out if my purpose go that deeper

Cannot seem to catch my reflection

I lost touch with reality, lost a connection with whom I’m posed to be close with

I’m wandering;

The mirror broke—

I stare at the face of earth blankly

These pages fit to be filled and so I spill my heart out in ink

Or lead, when I spit these words they hit with precision

Passive radar homing, I’m locked in

Lately, I can’t comprehend the way I feel

I’m searching the river. I’m chasing flows. Flaws. Floss

HOOK

Yeah. I’m. Searching. In. Thе. Mirror

Indulging too much

Afraid of making a change?

I don’t know, perhaps!

And, I been searching too long

Maybе I lost it too long

I’m chasing at my flows in the river, too long

VERSE TWO

I kept me at a distance, never felt any type of way about it; I pushed away all my significant relations

I wanted to be with myself much, I still couldn’t!

I got lost in transitions between then na my upcoming

That was my defense mechanism

I’m old enough now to understand why things are happening to me the way they are

Been living fast and moving reckless, I even lost my ethic

The first of the grandchildren I hope they catch me inspiring

I wrote letters, they did not deserve my poetry; I’m mean

At six years I detached myself from every kin, they insulted me!; a way of correction

Justifications how it worked with you

Working you out, you don’t need a bad day to see— you stressed out; it’s all on your face

Trauma acting reason

I did find a few of those and ran away from you

Justify a foul habit, head for the pen real quick I’m booked

I came clean to father, felt ashamed about my lies— ain’t gonna lie I’m getting cooked!

Forced to punishment, make no sense to me— maybe I should

Yearned for happiness away from home

I lost my identity

All of my dreams taller than GTC

Never needed a hill to die on, if I drop dead I give Kerenyaga a run for its height

And y’all’s money! I got pride in me

I pray it don’t get overblown

PROVERBS 4:1-27, is all I have been praying for

I am covered with grandma prayers and blessings

To whom much power is given, got to have many enemies— and much is expected

I never felt the weight of the burden until I met you

I never really understood!

Sis

HOOK : derrick!

Indulging too much

Afraid of making a change?

I don’t know, perhaps!

I been searching too long

Maybe I lost it too long

I’m searching in the mirror for my flaws… for my flaws… for my flows…flaws…flaws…flaws

I been searching in the river, baby

And I’m chasing in the mirror (mirror, mirror)