GOST LOLD – derrickwithaexclamationmark Lyrics
INTRO
Way too far
Searching too long
Tu.du.duuu
VERSE ONE
I been searching too long
CHASING AT THE RIVER, trying to figure out if my purpose go that deeper
Cannot seem to catch my reflection
I lost touch with reality, lost a connection with whom I’m posed to be close with
I’m wandering;
The mirror broke—
I stare at the face of earth blankly
These pages fit to be filled and so I spill my heart out in ink
Or lead, when I spit these words they hit with precision
Passive radar homing, I’m locked in
Lately, I can’t comprehend the way I feel
I’m searching the river. I’m chasing flows. Flaws. Floss
HOOK
Yeah. I’m. Searching. In. Thе. Mirror
Indulging too much
Afraid of making a change?
I don’t know, perhaps!
And, I been searching too long
Maybе I lost it too long
I’m chasing at my flows in the river, too long
VERSE TWO
I kept me at a distance, never felt any type of way about it; I pushed away all my significant relations
I wanted to be with myself much, I still couldn’t!
I got lost in transitions between then na my upcoming
That was my defense mechanism
I’m old enough now to understand why things are happening to me the way they are
Been living fast and moving reckless, I even lost my ethic
The first of the grandchildren I hope they catch me inspiring
I wrote letters, they did not deserve my poetry; I’m mean
At six years I detached myself from every kin, they insulted me!; a way of correction
Justifications how it worked with you
Working you out, you don’t need a bad day to see— you stressed out; it’s all on your face
Trauma acting reason
I did find a few of those and ran away from you
Justify a foul habit, head for the pen real quick I’m booked
I came clean to father, felt ashamed about my lies— ain’t gonna lie I’m getting cooked!
Forced to punishment, make no sense to me— maybe I should
Yearned for happiness away from home
I lost my identity
All of my dreams taller than GTC
Never needed a hill to die on, if I drop dead I give Kerenyaga a run for its height
And y’all’s money! I got pride in me
I pray it don’t get overblown
PROVERBS 4:1-27, is all I have been praying for
I am covered with grandma prayers and blessings
To whom much power is given, got to have many enemies— and much is expected
I never felt the weight of the burden until I met you
I never really understood!
Sis
HOOK : derrick!
Indulging too much
Afraid of making a change?
I don’t know, perhaps!
I been searching too long
Maybe I lost it too long
I’m searching in the mirror for my flaws… for my flaws… for my flows…flaws…flaws…flaws
I been searching in the river, baby
And I’m chasing in the mirror (mirror, mirror)
