honestav & mgk – Crash First Lyrics

Crash First – honestav & mgk Lyrics

I fill my lungs with half my worth

And try to go numb so that I can’t hurt

‘Cause at my highs, I’m at my worst

And I can’t fly until I crash first

Everyone’s seeing me screamin’, been that since birth

Everyone’s seeing this money I’m blowin’, but nobody’s seeing the work

Look, Dad, I’m high like you, for me, the pills don’t work

I like digging in a bag, I like smoking ‘til it hurts

And if my eyes roll back, then let the tears come first

Been holdin’ those in too long

Fakin’ it like I’m too strong

And when my eyes roll back, throw my body in the dam

And them things in my pocket, will you hide ‘em from my fam?

Will you tell the world I loved hard?

Can you make ‘em understand

That all of the things I was struggling with didn’t make me less a man?

And all of thе trauma I’m trying to bury probably made me who I am

Think growing up broken was nеcessary, so I could fix my fam

And part of me died on his deathbed, holding my daddy’s hand

Just tell my daughters their father will drown if that means they can swim

I fill my lungs with half my worth

And try to go numb so that I can’t hurt

‘Cause at my highs, I’m at my worst

And I can’t fly until I crash first

I know that it takes time, I’m comin’ to get you

Walkin’ a straight line, I need me a breakthrough

I’m smokin’ a grapevine, sippin’ the grape juice

Choppin’ a white line

It’s gettin’ harder to face you

(Oh, God)

(Yo, we ‘bout to— ayy, look)

(Yo, we ‘bout to fuck it up)

(Ayy, Kells, tell the people, man)

(Ayy, bro, ayy, Kells, they act like we don’t do this, man, what? Come on)

Yeah, take my hands off the wheel, I’m speedin’

I said I hate you when I left, I didn’t mean it

Open wounds from my nose, still bleedin’

Only you can clean me up, I’m still fiendin’

Cold sweats in these meds, can’t treat it

No sleep, I’ma party through the weekend

Kerosene, black smoke, I’m breathin’

Somebody, save me, I’ve been falling off the deep end, uh

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck (I don’t)

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck (I don’t)

I couldn’t give a fuck (No)

I never gave a fuck (No)

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck

Under pressure, I don’t got control of my aggression

Under the influence, I’m ‘bout to make a bad impression

On the dresser, it’s some ammunition and a weapon

And I’ve been smoking on this shit since I was adolescent

Three sixes, I’m tryna get lucky, number seven

I wonder if they got a spot for junkies up in Heaven?

Leave a mess if they gon’ find my body in the bedroom

And they can listen to this song if they want my confession

Yeah, take my hands off the wheel, I’m speedin’

I said I hate you when I left, I didn’t mean it

Open wounds from my nose, still bleedin’

Only you can clean me up, I’m still fiendin’

Cold sweats in these meds, can’t treat it

No sleep, I’ma party through the weekend

Kerosene, black smoke, I’m breathin’

Somebody, save me, I’ve been falling off the deep end (No)

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck (I don’t)

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck (I don’t)

I couldn’t give a fuck (No)

I never gave a fuck (No)

All I know is I don’t know how to give a fuck

Go, go, go, go

I’m getting closer to death

Go, go, go, go

I’m getting closer

Go, go, go, go

I’m getting closer to death

Go, go, go, go

I’m getting closer