Lil Lavi – Notepad (Letra & Video)

Notepad – Lil Lavi Letra

I'm going to sleep now

Bet they must think I'm weird

'Cause sometimes my eyes tear up suddenly

You ask me what happened to make me feel like this

But in reality, it's several things

That got jammed up in here for me to deal with

(They hold me in a prison)

When I recall it, I cry

Supposedly for no reason

I can't take off, well, at least I tried

It's just that when I look at my parents

I'm sure that I'm lonely

Maybe some people cry 'cause their parents made them wash the dishes

Or didn't fulfill their useless wishes

But I just didn't want my parents to laugh at me

When I came home crying after school almost daily

I wanted my mom not to call me dangerous and crazy

Not to mock my disorder

And then say that there's nothing wrong with me

Changing her mind whenever it suits her

I don't want to have children

But if I had one

Oh, dear imaginary kid

I promise I wouldn't be like this

(I swear I wouldn't)

I'm fucking sad

Convincing myself that the past stays in the past

That not everything is so bad

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I wish I were numb

Instead of dumb

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I wish I were numb

Instead of dumb

I wanted not to feel anything

Unfortunately or fortunately

I feel everything

I wanted to be insensitive

And I'm extremely sensitive

Or maybe this is all injustice

And I'm just acting humanely

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