Nichemax – i needed you (utter chaos) Lyrics

i needed you (utter chaos) – Nichemax Lyrics

Yeah…

Funny how silence gets louder when you grow up, innit?

Used to think the world was just colors and theme songs

Now it’s bills in envelopes and memories playing wrong

I remember laughter with no subtitles

Running through days that felt recyclable

Now every smile got context, every dream contractual

And the past keeps calling like a number I can’t cancel

We were kids in a room spinning too fast

Nobody told us the spinning would last

I thought chaos was playtime noise — harmless

Didn’t know it follows you into adulthood… regardlеss

Yeah

Press rewind… watch it distort

Cartoon skiеs dripping neon blue

Playground ghosts saying “wait for you”

I hear theme songs in the traffic lights

Everything bright but it don’t feel right

Sticker stars on a cracked-up ceiling

Smiling faces I borrowed for healing

Every joke had a hidden cue

Laugh track fades and it cuts to you

We were dancing in plastic crowns

While the walls kept melting down

Growing older felt like a prank

Confetti falling into the blank

I learned love from a looping scene

Half remembered, half machine

Every promise a rerun view —

I didn’t know what was false or true

I needed you…

When the noise got loud inside

I needed you…

When the colors wouldn’t stay bright

Calling through the echo

Nobody replies

I needed you…

Somewhere in the static night

I needed you…

I needed you…

Look —

Life ain’t a set with a reset button

No director yelling cut when the pressure’s coming

Had to grow through storms I was never taught to weather

Smiling for survival, holding pieces together

Mum said strength don’t always roar loud

Sometimes it’s just standing your ground in a quiet crowd

Carrying my younger self inside my chest

Trying to teach that kid how to finally rest

Yeah, adulthood heavy but I learned balance

Pain turned rhythm, trauma turned talent

Used to blame ghosts for the weight I feel

Now I face the mirror just to make it real

And maybe chaos ain’t the enemy — truth is

It’s just childhood dreams learning what proof is

I needed you…

When the noise got loud inside

I needed you…

When the colors wouldn’t stay bright

Holding onto echoes

Fading lullabies

I needed you…

Somewhere in the static night

Countdown backwards — ten, nine, fall apart

Toy piano playing through a broken heart

Spinning rooms, spinning names, spinning time

Someone press pause — I’m losing mine

(whispers) rewind me… remind me…

Faces blur in fluorescent rain

Every memory rearranged

I was laughing — was I crying?

Was the ending always hiding?

Childhood folded into view…

And every road kept leading you

I needed you…

But I found my voice inside

I needed you…

Till the silence learned to guide

Even in the chaos

I survived the night

I needed you…

Now I’m learning how to fly

I needed you…

Just to realize —

I was there the whole time

Round and round the colors go

Laugh too loud, then lose the show

Clap your hands, the lights turn blue

Was it me or was it you?

Utter chaos, curtain call

Tiny voices down the hall

Sing the ending, don’t ask why —

Wave goodbye, wave goodbye…

(voices overlapping, fading)

I needed you…

Needed you…

Needed you…

(tape slows — static — silence)