SXMRXXT – Absolutely Nothing Lyrics

Absolutely Nothing – SXMRXXT Lyrics

(Sighs)

There’s nothing worse than feeling sad

Except feeling… nothing at all

Just blank

Look

I stared at a blank wall for three hours today

Trying to find an emotion that I could put on display

But my chest is an empty room, the furniture is gone

I’m just a silhouette waiting for a delayed dawn

Usually, I can take the pain and turn it into art

Find a silver lining in a badly broken heart

But right now, the canvas is white, the paint is dried up

I’m sitting at the table with a bone-dry cup

People checking in on me, asking if I’m alright

I just stare at the screen, I don't have the strength to write

It’s not even a depression where you cry till you choke

It’s just the cold ash left over after the smoke

The music feels distant, the words feel hollow

There is no yesterday, there is no tomorrow

Just a flat line stretching out into the dark

A dead engine that refuses to spark

And there is absolutely nothing inside of me right now

I want to feel the weight but I don’t remember how

No anger, no sorrow, no butterflies in my sight

Just a vast, empty canvas of a stark, colorless night

Yeah, absolutely nothing…

And it’s the heaviest thing I’ve ever had to hold

I used to think that being numb was a safety net

A way to shield my mind from the things I regret

If you don't feel the love, then you don't feel the loss

You can cross every bridge without worrying about the cost

But this armor is a casket, it’s a living grave

I’m a prisoner to the safety that I tried to save

I miss the goosebumps, I even miss the fear

I miss the stinging water of a real, human tear

I’m an actor on a stage reading lines I didn't write

Moving through the motions in the middle of the light

But the spotlight is cold, and the audience is a ghost

I’m a stranger to the person that I used to know the most

Just skin and a pulse, a walking machine

Trapped in the static of an unmapped screen

So give me the hurt, give me the sting

Give me back the friction of a real, living thing

I don’t care if it destroys me, I don’t care if it breaks

I just want to feel the ground when it shakes

Let me feel… something

Anything

But there is absolutely nothing inside of me right now

I want to feel the weight but I don’t remember how

No anger, no sorrow, no butterflies in my sight

Just a vast, empty canvas of a stark, colorless night

Yeah, absolutely nothing…

And it’s the heaviest thing I’ve ever had to hold

Nothing

Just the rain

Just the room