Xilence Raps – Before The Knock (Lyrics & Video)

Before The Knock – Xilence Raps Lyrics

For everyone who thinks that night made sense…

You weren’t there

October sixth, right before the knock

Phone in my hand, waiting for it to stop

I wasn’t a threat, I was ready to fade

But they showed up like I needed to be saved

Red and blue turned pain into a scene

Now everybody got opinions on me

You saw a post, I lived that night

That’s the difference between truth and a lie

You said feel it, so I felt every word

I said I’m worse, you said “good,” that hurt

Begging you stop, you let it all build

That’s when something inside me got killed

Then came the knock, didn’t sound like help

Sounded like everything I knew myself

First time I saw ‘em, I was just a kid

So don’t tell me trust when I remember that shit

Lights through the glass, red mixed with blue

Seven outside like I’m something to shoot

Told me come forward, I said I won’t

I’ll back up instead, I don’t trust what you want

They said “people care,” I said “who? be real”

Silence told me everything I feel

You wear that badge, it don’t separate

Pain look the same when it’s on my plate

Then another door, “hands up,” loud

Someone not involved dragged in it now

Could’ve been one, maybe two at most

But they showed up like I’m doing the most

Hands already up when I opened that door

Still felt like I was seconds from more

Not a threat, just scared in place

But that don’t matter once they in your space

Then they send me somewhere “to get help”

But I’ve been there, I know that hell

Same blank stares, nothing gets fixed

Just another cycle I’m stuck in again

Found out later who made that call

People I trusted hurt worst of all

Then it hit online, everyone got takes

Some showing love, some justifying mistakes

And the same one who pushed me there

Now speaking up like she always cared

But that don’t change what I went through

Words don’t rewind what already came true

Next day came, I still went to work

Like life ain’t just show me how dark it could turn

That’s what stuck more than anything else

Life don’t stop for your mental health

So if you think that night made sense…

You weren’t there