Dear Diary Pt. 5 – Xilence Raps Lyrics
Dear Diary…
I blocked her three days ago
I thought it would feel powerful
It didn’t
It just got quiet
And now she shows up when I sleep
Three nights straight, same dream
Same kitchen, same younger me
He’s laughing like nothing ever leaves
Like love don’t come with receipts
She looks at him like he’s enough
Like he don’t gotta earn her touch
Like he ain’t scared of being too much
Or not enough
And I’m just there watching it
Like I don’t belong in it
Like I broke into my own past
And I can’t live in it
It’s not a nightmare
It’s just who I used to be
And that hurts worse
He don’t have these walls I built
He don’t second-guess what he feels
He don’t measure every word
Or calculate what love could steal
He trusted without backup plans
He opened up with shaking hands
He thought if something felt that real
It couldn’t end
I wanna tell him what I know
But I don’t get to change the show
I just wake up in this version
Colder than I was before
Blocking her was easy
Blocking him is impossible
I don’t miss her
I miss the boy who believed like that
The one who loved without armor
The one who didn’t survive it
He didn’t die loud
He just…
Didn’t come with me
Dear Diary…
I guess this is what growth feels like
Not winning
Just losing parts of yourself
And calling it maturity
Dear Diary Pt. 5, de Xilence Raps (compositor(es): Xilence Raps), lançado em 3 de julho de 2026; faixa introspectiva sobre perda e memória.
