SXMRXXT – Cathartic Lyrics

Cathartic – SXMRXXT Lyrics

I held my breath for ten thousand days

Swallowed the ocean just to hide the waves

But the water’s rising

And the levees are breaking

I kept it locked inside a wooden box beneath my ribs

Trading in my truths for a lifetime of convenient fibs

Smiling for the camera, smiling for the crowd

Turning down the volume when the quiet got too loud

But you can't contain a hurricane inside a paper cup

Eventually the pressure builds, eventually it ruptures up

I felt it in my hands today, the trembling in my veins

The phantom of the past tugging sharply on the reins

Every loss I never grieved, every tear I never shed

Every word I should have spoken to the living and the dead

They’re knocking on the door now, they’re demanding to be seen

Washing out the color of this artificial screen

And it’s cathartic, the way it tears me down

A beautiful disaster in an empty, quiet town

I’m falling to my knees, I’m letting go of the control

A violent, bright surrender at the bottom of my soul

Let it rain, let it flood, let it wash the slate clean

This is the most human that I have ever been

I'm throwing out the blueprints of the life I tried to build

Leaving every empty prophecy I made unfulfilled

I don't care about the legacy, I don't care about the name

I just want to walk away from this exhausting, hollow game

Screaming at the sky until my vocal cords give out

Trading in the certainty for the beauty of the doubt

It hurts, oh God, it hurts, but it’s a pain that lets me live

A pain that proves I finally have something left to give

The walls are coming down, the bricks are turning into dust

I’m replacing all my armor with a terrifying trust

In the process of the breaking, in the beauty of the fall

I’m losing everything I was to finally find it all

Break the dam!

Let it crash against the stones!

I am shaking out the demons from the marrow in my bones!

Every lie, every fear, every shadow in the night!

Burn it down, burn it down in this blinding, holy light!

I’m alive!

I’m alive!

God, I’m finally alive!

And it’s cathartic, the way it tears me down

A beautiful disaster in an empty, quiet town

I’m falling to my knees, I’m letting go of the control

A violent, bright surrender at the bottom of my soul

Let it rain, let it flood, let it wash the slate clean

This is the most human that I have ever been

It’s out

It’s finally out